17 weeks

how far along? 17 weeks

how are you measuring? Won't know again until 7/7 - anatomy scan
size of baby? Pear (is that really bigger than last week? I'm suspicious of some of these fruit!)

heartbeat?  148 bpm at 12w

total weight gain/loss? +8 at 126

maternity clothes? Oh yeah. There's no sucking it in anymore, not even in the morning. Even when I lay down, it's clear that someone is growing in there, which makes me happy.

stretch marks? Nothing new.
sleep?  Ok. Up for peeing. Constant, weird dreams. 
movement? Yes!! I mostly feel it when I'm still, but I'm sure I'm feeling her. 
food cravings? Nope, although I'm thrilled to say that I'm back to eating more whole foods - salads, legumes, fish. It doesn't always stay down, but I seem to have dropped to only vomiting once a week, and if I can get anything other than processed carbs in, I'm thrilled!
gender predictions? Still a girl. 
what i miss? I've felt icky enough this week I didn't even miss wine and sushi. Is that a win or a loss? 
what i'm looking forward to? Just hoping to hear a healthy heartbeat at my appointment on Thursday. 
how are you feeling? I'm having brief moments without soul-crushing nausea, but only brief moments. I'm still puking occasionally, and retching in the afternoons. Can I dare to hope that the nausea-free moments will increase and the puking will keep decreasing? 
comparisons to last pregnancy? This was the week that Zoe's water broke. Friday will mark the gestational age when I went into labor. I find myself thinking a lot about what life would have been like if they'd made it closer to term. We'd have 3 month twins now. It's tough. I miss them. I love you, baby girls. 

16 weeks

Last weekend marked our trip to the Boundary Waters. It was amazing. While I'm sure there are other places on earth that are as beautiful as the Boundary Waters, there are none that I would rather visit. It was so nice to share that with my dad and step mom. Most importantly, DH and I took a canoe out to a beautiful island in the BWCA and scattered some of the girls' ashes. I think we both felt a bit anxious about doing the "right" thing for them before hand, but it turned out perfect. There are so few things I have been able to give my daughters, being able to leave them in a beautiful place seemed right. I love them both so much and I miss watching them grow and getting to know them. 

how far along? 16 weeks

how are you measuring? Won't know again until 7/7 - anatomy scan
size of baby? Avocado

heartbeat?  148 bpm at 12w

total weight gain/loss? I still don't know - it turns out that when I replaced the battery in my scale, it still wouldn't work. I'm sure I'm up, as I ate my way through vacation and have gone about a week without throwing up. Edit: scale won't work with rechargables! Appear to be +7 at 125. That's the highest I made it last time at 17 weeks with twins. Not sure what to make of that.

maternity clothes? Definitely. With so many thanks to my step mom and dad, I now have clothes that fit and are work appropriate. I feels so much better about myself.  

stretch marks? Nothing new.
sleep?  Up every 2 hours to pee. Feel miserable when I do, until about 2 am.
movement? Yes!! In the last three or four days, I've noticed a consistent tapping coming from somewhere inside. I love it. 
food cravings? Nope.
gender predictions? Still a girl. 
what i miss? Wine. Sushi. I think this will be a constant refrain. 
what i'm looking forward to? Leaving for the Boundary Waters this week! Local art fair today. 
how are you feeling? Still awful. Headaches, nausea, gas. 
comparisons to last pregnancy? The nosebleeds have started up. Not every day like last time, but often. I've also realized, as I've started to feel this baby move, that I think I did feel the twins moving before the end. Things that I had assumed were gas/digestive unhappiness appear to be movement. Somehow it makes me happy to know I felt the girls', even if I didn't know it then. 

14 weeks

how far along? 14 weeks

how are you measuring? Won't know again until 7/7 - anatomy scan
size of baby? Lemon!

heartbeat?  148 bpm at 12w

total weight gain/loss? Don't know - my scale's battery died, either that or my weight is just 'Lo' and I"m certain that's not the cases!

maternity clothes? Holy cow yes. In the last week, the bump arrived. 

stretch marks? Nothing new.
sleep?  Up every 2 hours to pee. Feel miserable when I do, until about 2 am.
movement? No longer sure - I feel tickling in a place I"ve never felt it. It's different than gas, different that my stomach's constant gurgling. It seems to early, but maybe it's her?
food cravings? Nope.
gender predictions? She's a girl!!!!
what i miss? Wine. We have family here and they're drinking wine every night. With all the losses and fertility treatment, it's been since November 15 since I've really had even a full glass of wine. I'm sad.
what i'm looking forward to? Leaving for the Boundary Waters this week! Local art fair today. 
how are you feeling? Still awful. Less constant, completely overwhelming nausea, more puking with no warning. More digestive unhappiness. 
comparisons to last pregnancy? I am now visually bigger at 14 weeks with one baby than I was at 18 weeks with two. I have hugely mixed feelings about this. On one hand, it's nice to be clearly pregnant. I was sad I never got that last time. On the other, it's awfully early to be this big. What comes next?!