Monday, August 3, 2020

The Streak Ends

You prepare yourself. You think through the different possible scenarios. The version where the call says both embryos are healthy. The version where only one embryo is healthy. The version where the call says neither are healthy.

You remind yourself that your life is awesome and no matter what the call says, it will stay awesome.

You prepare yourself, and you guard your heart against the future.

And your heart still breaks when the call comes in that neither are good.

48 XX, +3, +4. 45 XY, -19, +21, -22.

This means an end to our streak of healthy twins from July cycles. I don't take for granted how lucky we were to have that streak. I do grieve that it hasn't continued. On to the next cycle.

4 comments:

  1. Oh no. I'm so sorry. Feeling with you as you grieve and move forward to the next opportunity.

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  2. Oh, I'm so sorry. It's such a gut-punch. Sending thoughts for the grief of this and hopes for the next cycle.

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  3. I’m sorry.😔 sending lots of care. Hoping for your next cycle.

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  4. I'm so sorry to hear that. Just as you are grateful for your past streak, you're allowed to grieve this.

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